Hectic.

Okay, since becoming unemployed, life has been really, really boring. It's like I've lost my direction, don't know what to do next, and I've been feeling unwell. My appetite is gone, and I've dramatically lost 9kg. I've felt like I've been depressed for the past month and a half.

I do hang out with friends, go for walks, and fish, but most of my time is spent sleeping and being irritable. Okay, I know I should be doing something productive. But honestly, I feel like something's missing, and this break isn't what I expected. Ideally, I'd love a year-long break. I really mean it. I miss my old life in Ipoh so much, minus the student life. It was so peaceful, private, and relaxed. I could be alone whenever I wanted.

Thankfully, I've felt better over the past three days, except for this terrible allergy. I can't take any antihistamines because of my current condition, so I've been enduring the itchiness while sitting in front of a fan. My throat feels like vomiting, and my stomach is constantly hungry. At least I still have some peace.